We all have them. But I have been trying to stay positive on here and for Peter. The last thing he needs to hear is a complaining stressed out wife. But I have to be realistic. And writing this helps a little. I get overwhelmed once in a while. Tonight was one of those nights. Nothing out of the ordinary. It just depends on how tired I am .When both girls need me, and when they both are demanding their needs be met immediatly, I have a rough time. Both are screaming. Which one to help first?? Sometimes, I just want to scream, "Why don't one of you help me!!??"
But then I come to my senses. I am thankful to have to beautiful girls that need me. I know this time will past quickly and I will long for the days that they both need mommy. The Lord has been so gracious to me during all of this. Baby #2 has been much easier than the first. Molly's temperament is a lot more laid back. And I know that I am a whole lot less stressed this time round. I even told Peter that I would like to have another... but not for a little bit.
I prayed so hard for an easier baby. And the Lord gave. And I know the prayers from all my friends and family have been working. I feel the Lord's presence. So I continue on. I just needed to actually say that I get overwhelmed and move on with it. I think I am too hard on myself with not having the house spotless. Not feeding Samantha 5 course meals. Not losing my baby weight via exercise like I planned... don't get me started on that. OK, this is all disjointed. I am gonna have a good cry, and feel a whole lot better. Until next time...
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Praying for you and understanding you completely. I'm home all day tomorrow, so if you want to stop by and continue your good cry, feel free. :o)
Awww Julie, it's okay to admit you are overwhelmed! I can't imagine taking care of both of my girls by myself 24/7. You are WONDER WOMAN!
Julie, I will be praying even more for you now. I totally understand the stress of taking care of little ones. When my youngest was born, I had 3 under the age of 3. It was crazy at times, and I went through a very dark time, emotionally.
I tell you that, because I want you to learn from my mistakes. Don't be afraid to ask for help. You have lots of friends at church (including myself) who would be more than willing to help you. So, please let us know how we can help. If you just want to get out, we could meet up at a park or something so the kids could play.
Just to give you a little glimmer of hope...life does get easier...I promise! =)
You are doing what so many of us could never do! I would be a mess all the time! You are doing great! I'm with ya on the 5 course meal thing...I feel like Brookie doesn't get nearly the nutrition that she needs, but then I realize that there are millions of kids in the world who don't and they are healthy and fine. :)
The most important thing is not being overwhelmed...forget about the house and the dinners for now. You do a great job--so much more than most Moms! When Daniel is gone, I don't even cook--it's sandwiches for dinner! Your house will be perfect one day--but not now. You live in a home, not a magazine, everyone with kids has MESS! I have lots of MESS in my house!! Closets that look cluttered and drawers without much organization!!! Who cares?? It can't all be perfect at the same time--so don't even try. The girls are more important--so is your sanity.
Be thankful for the fingerprints and the jelly on the chair. Think of those who wish everyday for children and play with your kids.
One day your home will be spotless and your girls grown and gone, you will want TODAY back, and it will be very sad.
And your right, a good cry helps, so does saying "I quit! It's too much!" Usually at that point you realize the Lord will give you grace for that moment and it's going to be okay.
You know, I used to be a perfectionist, but now I'm a Mom. I can't ruin their lives with all that pressure that I've put on myself for so long. I'm going to enjoy my life!
Miss You! and praying for you!
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