I realize that being a woman comes with a little more emotion. I mean come on. We have a lot to deal with. I'm not talking kids, chores, bills, housework, etc. I am talking hormones, monthly "visits", and just a completely different make up then men. I am not saying this is a bad thing. I am glad to be a woman. I know God had a reason for designing us this way... maybe a later blog entry.
I just want to say that sometimes we all need a good cry. If you google info about the benefits of crying, you will be amazed. It's actually GOOD for you. The Bible speaks about this. Today is one of those days.
I haven't reached the point yet. I think once the kids are in bed, and all distractions gone, I will let it happen. Why? Many reasons. One being... I am a woman! We have a lot of decisions to make in our lives. But it seems with the military, we are forced to make decisions the average person does not. Our life is run by where they tell us to go, and WHEN. Will we be together when we go... or apart?
Do not get me wrong. I fully trust in God's perfect will. If he wants us here... we will be here. If He wants us to go, we will get orders. If Peter gets a deployment, (which we should find out sometime soon possibly), then that is God's will too.
The thought of him being gone again overwhelms me at times. Although, when I was in the moment, we managed. Of course there were bad days, but overall we did it. But now with the girls older, I think it will be a lot harder. But God is in control.
I am not going to delve into a "Woe is me" secession. That is not what this is for. So I stop here. But I will say, once I get out my cry, I know I will feel better and be a lot happier.
3 comments:
I feel like crying too, for other reasons, of course. But, you are not alone... :-)
A good cry does feel good, just try not to do it tomorrow in front of your guests! :o) If you need a shoulder, mine is available.
I TOTALLY hear you sister! Praying for God's will to be made clear to you and your family. :)
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